It can be tempting to think of time as a thief. However, I try to remember that time is a gift. If time has stolen anything from me, it has given it back to me more. Memories, moments, second chances, one day built upon another until I am here. Today. With so much to be thankful for.
In the book One Thousand Gifts, author Ann Voskamp spends a chapter on time, concluding that: "Giving thanks for one thousand things is ultimately an invitation to slow time down with weight of full attention...Time is a relentless river. It rages on, a respecter of no one. And this, this is the only way to slow time: When I fully enter time's swift current, enter into the current moment with the weight of all my attention, I slow the torrent with the weight of me all here. I can slow the torrent by being all here. I only live the full life when I live fully in the moment. And when I'm always looking for the next glimpse of glory, I slow and enter. And time slows." (p 69-70)
This theme is found throughout the Bible, with the Psalmist praying "teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom" (Psalm 90:12). I am also reminded of the study I am participating in this year on the Isrealites during and after the Babylonian exile. I shared earlier in the year how I was surprised to find that their exile ended. Now as we near the end of the study, I am also realizing how far they still had to go after the end of the exile and how much time all of the rebuilding took. It took two years for the first wave of returning exiles to rebuild the foundation of the temple, about twenty-three years to rebuild the temple, and approximately ninety-four years to rebuild the walls of Jerusalem. Even after these ninety some years, Jerusalem remained sparsely populated and the Isrealites continued to be ruled by foreigners. Rebuilding was slowed by sin and opposition, but rebuilding also takes time. God was working in the hearts and lives of His people, leading them, guiding them, and preparing them. God uses time in our own lives too, more concerned about our sanctification and the growth of our faith than slowing down or speeding up time to fit our desires. Time in God's hands is a gift.
As I continue to mourn what was and what might have been, as I stand in awe of God's continued work in my life, as both my mourning and my awe remind me our days here on earth pass both too quickly and too slowly, I take comfort in the fact that God is everlasting. He holds our lives in His hands. And He invites us to spend eternity with Him. I'll end this reflection on time with a final quote from Ann Voskamp: "In Christ, don't we have everlasting existence? Don't Christians have all the time in eternity, life everlasting?" (p 64).










