Carrying Sheaves: A Quick Thought on Doubt

Sometimes I write brave and hard things on here about faith, hope, and life after crushing disappointment. Things like this quote from my post about Oliver's diabetes: "Let's fix our eyes on the unseen behind these circumstances, trusting God that in the end these struggles are just stepping stones to who God created us to be." I write and publish those things, and I believe them with most of my heart. However, afterwards I often walk around with a feeling of heaviness, sadness, and doubt. I say with the father of the boy possessed by an impure spirit in Mark 9, "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief."

This side of heaven, human words can be helpful, true, and faith-building. They are also insufficient to express everything we feel or to help us reason away all doubt and grief. Instead, we trust that His grace is sufficient and remember our faith is a gift of God. Our doubts and other feelings keep us daily relying on Jesus. He is the Constant One, the Steady One, the True Overcomer. All praise and glory and honor belongs to Him.